My thought behind writing Suddenly Crazy was to chronicle my mental health journey. I found the courage to do so after spending several months following Jenny Lawson's blog, The Bloggess. (see side bar at right for a link to her awesome blog).
Why would I want to share my crazy brain with the whole world, you may wonder? Cuz maybe, just maybe, telling my story would help. Help make the crazy easier to bear, help me see the humor, help me express my thoughts by throwing them out there to see where they land?
Or...to be real.
To admit to the world that my brain doesn't work quite right is scary. What if you read this and decide I am some kind of psycho freak that you are afraid to be around? I guess that's the chance I have to take if I want to be genuine and vulnerable.
No more hiding....hiding under the covers... hiding my shame.
But thankfully there is hope and it comes in many colors: good meds, good Heavenly Father, good friends.....just to name a few.
Da Huz and I decided that a little counseling was a good idea. My previous blogs kinda wigged him out and he thought it was time to bring in the professionals.
So, today while we were there I made a comment that I knew was true in my heart, but that when the words came out of my mouth they surprised me. They were so powerful, so true. So amazing. Such a blessing.
The comment was this: that you guys saved me. You wonderful people unknowingly helped pull me out of a deep and horrible place. Your humor and YOUR craziness and your kindness....
Thank you Dear Friends. I love you.
Hi Hunny. I am crazy and have screwy issues too. I love you. Thank you for being so brave to share.
ReplyDeletethanks Laur! xxoo! there's a wee bit o' screwy in all of us, methinks!
ReplyDeleteCFM here - you're one of the most normal people I know. I love your sense of humour. I also read the bloggess's story. I had something a bit similar but didn't share it with anyone, even with close family & friends, and wondered why she would. Then I realized it was not only brave, but essential. How are people going to be able to deal with this sort of thing unless others share their experiences and tell them it's ok? I really admire people like her and you - I don't think I could do it myself. xo
ReplyDeleteI've always known you were crazy.....it takes one to know one! Just like I started my blog to journal my health journey- this will help someone....someone you probably know.... but had no idea they were struggling with the same thing. Transparency among friends is something that we have so lost in this culture.
ReplyDeleteKeep writing!
"it takes one to know one. . ." LOL! Yes, writing is sort of a healing thing for me, and if there is someone out there that benefits from that. . .that would be pretty cool too. Thinking of transparency, it was our dinner and you providing a safety for me to be transparent that gave me a big push in the right direction! See how God uses you in my life. . .all the time!
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